My Life

 

Give Anyway

A friend of mine told me there’s two kinds of people in the world: givers and takers. I, personally, am very bad at spotting the takers. My expectations of people are high, because I demand high expectations of myself. I expect others to put forth the same effort I do, in everything. On top of […]

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Spiritual Grace

It surprises me how many are willing to offer non-judgmental or even encouraging words towards those in their fitness journey but are not willing to offer the same grace to those on their spiritual journey. Expecting someone to be where you are with their fitness is similarly expecting someone to be where you are spiritually. […]

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Because You Love It

Lift because you love it, work like you have a goal, and the results will come in time…. This content is for Monthly Subscribers – $5.99, Website Access and Bi-Monthly Check-in and Contest Prep, Website Access and Weekly Check-in members only.Log In Register...

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What’s Your Why?

Recently someone posed a simple yet profound question to me: “What’s your Why”? I paused to evaluate myself, my job, and what I value, searching for a suitable answer.   This is what I came up with. All the pictures in the world cannot come close to expressing how much being a mom to Anna means…...

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Your Positive Mind

I was that skinny child who wore “slim” jeans until I hit puberty. The rest of my adolescence was spent on the chunkier side. I started counting calories and dieting at 12 years old and I worried constantly about my… This content is for Monthly Subscribers – $5.99, Website Access and Bi-Monthly Check-in and Contest...

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Father’s Day 2018

Let me tell you about my relationship with my dad. It was a rocky one most of my life. As the youngest and only girl I was extremely sensitive. My brothers and I joke how it was nearly impossible to get a compliment from him and if you got a “that’s pretty good” you killed…...

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Be Selfish To Become Selfless

I think to anyone outside the sport of bodybuilding/love of weight training we look like selfish, superficial, vain folks. But to those who know and have tasted what this lifestyle feels like as a ritual, let me call on you to back me up as I explain what it is and what it isn’t to…...

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Training Begins With My Dad

My dad was diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease within the last year…he just turned 77 years old on Feb 13th.  Over the winter I’d spoken to my mom about traveling back home to take my dad to the gym a couple days a week but the snowy weather prevented it until now. Parkinson’s affects ones motor…...

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Doing My Best

Facebook memories brought up that picture on the left from 2010 I remember how proud I was I could fit into those jeans. Having grown up in the 90’s my ideal body was “skinny”. That “whatever it takes” mantra you hear so prevalently in bodybuilding was much more applicable to my previous self. I opt for  what…...

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Insanity

You’ll never find happiness in the same place you lost it. Back in 1998 I was a cardio bunny and 2 pack a day smoker, living off slim fast shakes mixed with water and meatless salads topped with fat free dressing. I was malnourished, living off the 80’s/90’s diet mentality of everything fat free, and […]

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Make Harmony

A recent conversation with my friend John Jewett really made me check myself. I was complementing him on how he handles problems and expresses his opinion, His summation: “I try to make harmony” was like a dropped bomb. What an amazing, and unfortunately, atypical approach. These days, I feel so many people pride themselves on…...

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Annabelle’s 12th Birthday Party

Annabelle’s 12th birthday party was a success with the theme of “Anna’s Farm”. The girls all played outside with the bunny, chickens, chick,s and ducks. There was a pinata, and plenty of snacks and food. I’m sharing this because and the party contained a proud parent moment I will replay in my mind for a…...

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The Real Failure

The picture on the left was me at 19, taking pictures in my living room to send to an agency, hoping to make it as a model. The picture on the left is me at 38, after my fourth fitness photo shoot. Dreams do not have expiration dates. In the spring of 2014 I was…...

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Be Fit For Life

This is me at 21 and then at 38 years old. Lots of people can come up with reasons why they don’t want to go to the gym but have you ever thought of the reasons why you should?…… This content is for Monthly Subscribers – $5.99, Website Access and Bi-Monthly Check-in and Contest Prep,...

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Henry Runs The Race

Looking back at a night this past month… Last night Anna ignored me repeatedly when I asked her to go to bed and her punishment was that we didn’t have time for stories, devotions, or talking and snuggling. Today I was exhausted and fell asleep after dinner and she woke me at 8:30 ready for […]

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Happy Birthday Annabelle

Today marks the 11 year anniversary of the best day of my life…. Dear Annabelle Grace Terpstra, after 3 and a half years of trying to get pregnant, with multiple surgeries, rounds of fertility drugs, a miscarriage, and lots of prayers…finally I was at peace that I would never be pregnant…when I found out I […]

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Help From My Angel

I guess this car thing has me a bit stressed because after the church potluck I fell into my bed and crashed until Anna woke me for night church…I found these two notes, one by the kitchen sink and one by the laundry on the floor.

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New Car!

On September 26th, Anna and I got into a car accident right after school. We are fine but she bumped her head against the window and has a slight bruise on her forehead. There’s extensive damage to my car but we have insurance etc etc…this was almost the last straw to a horrible day. The […]

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Better Than Nothing

This summer has been a struggle for me to get to the gym because even though vacation time is supposed to be split 50/50 with Anna’s dad, it hasn’t been that way…. This content is for Monthly Subscribers – $5.99, Website Access and Bi-Monthly Check-in and Contest Prep, Website Access and Weekly Check-in members only.Log...

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Dieting Is Hard

The title of this post may seem obvious but this is a subject that needs to be addressed. Whether you are in contest prep or working towards weight loss in a limited time frame, there are some things you need to be aware of, and mainly that dieting is hard. When I help people with…...

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Gratitude Journal

This isn’t anything super special, but I started to realized how blessed I am and wanted to actually take notes of it over the course of about 30 days. Just like you I have bad days but I wondered how many there actually are that I can’t find something to be grateful for! To be […]

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Love Is

Love is being loyal to your own ability to think and process. Being responsible for your actions and recognizing the responses you elicit are reflections of yourself. It’s not pushing for one moment but desiring all the moments.

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Progress

In case you didn’t know my 10-year-old daughter is pretty amazing. She worked on a presentation for school and came home with the evaluation sheet, pulling it out of her back pack to show me. With a determined look on her face she clutched the paper and spat out the words… I got a “B”!! […]

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Bodybuilding Bug

If you caught the bodybuilding bug and signed on because you’re looking to finish a project–this just in: it’s called bodybuilding for a reason…just like my “to do” list it’ll never be done. If that were the case it would be called bodybuilt.

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Make Yourself Valuable

In a world full of 7.4 billion people how do you stand out from the rest. Many people would describe themselves as good spouses or parents, funny, kind, or genuine, but how does that make you different? More importantly, how does that make you valuable? We all know that actions speak louder than words, so […]

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Trust Your Gut

A couple weeks ago I was about to head home from judging a show and had stopped at a 7/11 to gas up my car for the two hour drive back. I had a fish meal in my iso-bag but really didn’t want that. I wanted something…so I walked around the convenience store and settled…...

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Fall In Love With The Process

Fall in love with the process and you’ll never worry about the time it takes to reach your destination. I don’t bodybuild just for aesthetics. As much as I love seeing the results of my work, even in as little as a few weeks time, I really do it because I love being in control […]

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What’s Your Gift?

Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle, and it’s life will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared. My daughter is an excellent artist when it comes to drawing. She loves it and she’s naturally good at it. We noticed at a very young age when she started to write […]

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The Struggle

So today a girl friend of mine messaged me asking for my advice. She had gone to the neighborhood pool down by her parents house to spend some time alone and was “entertained” the entire 90 minutes by a 50’s year old neighbor (friend of her parents, and she’s 22) and was upset he’d monopolized […]

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What Monsters?

As we grow older we realize the monsters don’t live under our beds but rather inside of us. I still have plenty to conquer but doing my first bodybuilding competition was definitely a great start. It takes a lot of courage to step on stage.  Many of us don’t always have or get the support […]

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Failure

I have not failed. I’ve found a thousand ways that won’t work ~Thomas Edison. We learn from trial and error. We become wise by understanding and working through problems. Our mistakes don’t define us, they create us and correct us, making us change for the better. I hate to say “been there done that”, but […]

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Place The Mask On Your Face First

I’ve seen this couple training at my gym before, but this was the first time I saw them doing their entire 90 plus minute session with their wheel-chair-bound daughter by their side. The wife wheeled her into the gym right over to her dad when they began and he immediately pulled her out of the […]

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Make a Plan

It’s not that I’m not a fan of complaining or anything, I’ve just come to realize it doesn’t solve anything. Yes I do like to complain, on occasion, but I prefer to call it venting, and it’s just my transition period from problem to solution. Did you know the key to solving anything is to […]

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Welcome October

I’m so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers ~ L.M. Montgomery. October 6, 2011 I got married in an off-white silk dress with spaghetti straps. It snowed that day. Welcome to Michigan. Almost 15 years later, I’m a totally different person…as I should be. I’ve had to make a lot of […]

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Finding Balance

Ok I’ll admit I’m not one of those die hard dieters. I know many people are, or they claim to be anyways, but I’m very emotionally driven with food. If I’m tired, stressed, or delinquent with my workouts (the last one especially) I tend to “treat myself”. It’s hard, it really is, to not fall […]

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Happy Anniversary

Every year Helzberg sends me a coupon for a free piece of jewelry on my anniversary. (Even though I’m not married anymore.) I said something to the manager last time but they didn’t take us off the list, so that was nice. I take Anna to pick it up and then let her keep it. […]

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Miracles

The other day as I was driving Anna to school, I mentioned to her that I was losing a client on my cleaning schedule and I needed to try and pick up another one. Her response was that she would bring it up as a prayer request in her classroom. Then, she got a sly […]

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Always Believe In Yourself

A bird sitting in a tree is never afraid of the branch breaking because her trust is in her own wings, not the branch. Always believe in yourself. My life is not easy, by any means, but I’ve gotten to that point where I trust myself to know I can handle almost any situation it […]

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Happy Birthday Anna

Of course I believe in love at first sight. Before I was a mom, I couldn’t imagine life with a child. After I became one, I couldn’t imagine life without her. Anna gave me a purpose, made me a stronger woman, and helped me find myself…is helping me find myself. Everything’s a process.

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A Bulimic Athlete

I left you behind because you belong in my past not my future. I had a full circle moment this past week and I’d like to share it with you. I began swimming when I was 5 years old and was very good by the time I was 8. I held records all through my […]

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Bed Post

Out with the old, in with the new. A common phrase that is as powerful as you want it to be. This month has been a lot of new beginnings. Our old car got destroyed and we got a new (to us) one, Anna started middle school (yikes!), I purged a lot of my clothes […]

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Decide and Own Your Life

In July of 2011 I was finally officially divorced after exactly a year from when I’d served my husband with divorce papers. I was back in college, and had found solace in the basement dungeon gym of the school. Scared to put 100% into anything, yet, my body didn’t really reflect my work. I was […]

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Fall seven times. Get up eight.

I call this the Cadbury Egg Story. I have been through my share of struggles in my lifetime, including childbirth, miscarriage, chronic physical pain, eating disorders, and divorce, so I am not about to put contest prep on those levels, but it is its own type of struggle both physically and mentally. My first show […]

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What are the results of me time?

Let me share. I’ve always been athletic. My weight has been everything from 105 pounds to 173 (during the last day of my pregnancy) with varying body fat percentages. But ever since I was in my early teens I would give myself at least 30 minutes, most days, to exercise in one way or another. […]

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New Year New You

There’s not much scarier than embarking on a new journey to change but there’s not much that’s more exciting either. The potential rewards are limitless as well as the opportunity for growth. Often the thought of joining a gym is frightening but confining yourself to your home and trying to work out there is doesn’t […]

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We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to love an imperfect person perfectly

As a mother I painfully do not have a better description for pregnancy than “the slowest train wreck on earth”…except that it’s totally worth it because it results in life!! I’m not trying to be negative, but the aftermath can be brutal. Just like a train wreck there will be destruction. For nine months your […]

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